Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Noticed

"I have heard your prayer and seen your tears." Isaiah 38:5

Sometimes a girl just needs a good cry.

Having endured 8 days of very limited hearing and feeling like I've been living underwater in a tunnel, I couldn't wait to see my Doctor. I was so sure of the diagnosis and the procedure needed to bring restoration. However, after only minutes of consultation it was clear I was wrong. Inflicted with a bad infection, I was prescribed three treatments and told it could take up to six weeks for all the fluid to drain. This was not the news I expected or anticipated.

Having intended to head to the grocery store following my appointment, I first took a detour. I couldn't get home quick enough to crumble. Falling on the floor in my bedroom I cried and prayed. I was exhausted. Straining to listen and carry on as 'normal' over the past week had taken it's toll. The pressure inside my head would remain longer. I wasn't prepared for this news.

"I have heard your prayers and seen your tears."

Father, thank You for seeing me. Thank You for letting me know You noticed my grief and heard me calling out to You. I would love for You to intervene immediately and miraculously bring healing, but for today I'm content to know You know. You haven't abandoned me. Delay is not denial and I will continue to trust You.

I can't stand the thought of You withdrawing Your presence from me like You did with Hezekiah in order to test his character (2 Chronc. 32:31). I pray my faith would stand, "for character is more easily kept than recovered." (Deanna Champman) Lord, I can't live a day without You.

Thank You for holding my fragile, broken heart. Please continue to dry my tears.

Psalm 30:5, "...weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning."

Watching for the breaking of that dawn.





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9 comments:

Sharon@JoyInTheTruth said...

Joy:

Beautiful. Honest. True.

Danielle said...

Sister, I just love you!

Anonymous said...

Joy.I cannot tell you how much you have blessed me and helped me understand scripture(through God)since I have been reading with you ladies. God always seem to give you words that I need.And the way you are able to articulate them I greatly admire.I would love to have the gift of articulation. Words does not always come easily for me. I thank you for using your gift,thank you for helping me put into words some of the things I feel and would like to say.

You are such a blessing.

Hightly Favored

On Purpose said...

Praying and knowing He is all around you.

~Grace and Peace said...

Joy,

Sometimes words fail me...
I will give you my (((((((HUGS)))))) instead.

May you feel God's loving embrace today.

Karen said...

Joy,

He is able (as you so aptly put it), and He loves you. I am leaving a quote from Charles Stanley here; hopefully it will help you in your time of trial.

"Every circumstance in life is lovingly sifted through the Lord’s fingers before reaching us. From His perspective, those things which are too heavy for us are opportunities for dependence upon Him. God never intends for any of us to carry a burden without Him. He says to give it to Him (v. 22) and promises to sustain us. "

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. " - John 14:27

Peace,

Karen

~Grace and Peace said...

Joy!

Thank you for the Mark Harris link you left for me. You know I was thinking of linking that very song but did not know how? How amazing is that??? You've blessed me twice already today.

I hope your ear problem has eased somewhat. Know that the Lord is using even your pain to minister to others. We serve an awesome God!

Your sister in Christ,
~T

Deb said...

You are so right! A good cry can work wonders.

I'm sorry that you're sick and that your recovery will take some time.

He loves you. Hears your cries. Sees your tears.

May you know the truth of this promise:

"Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5b

Paula said...

Thanks for your posts. I read several and enjoyed them.

Came to your blog through your comments on Lysa's blog: She Speaks. I see you like Isaiah too! Hope I get to meet you at the Conference (I'm originally from Jamaica, another British colony!)

I'm also having some trouble with my ear, but learning, like you to keep doing what I can and giving it up to the One who filters everything that comes to us. May the Lord heal us both!

Bless you... greatly.