Monday, March 16, 2009

Pass or Fail

"The LORD your God is testing you to see if you truly love him with all your heart and soul." Deuteronomy 13:3

I hate tests. I don't want to fail. I want to pass with flying colours. I can remember studying for hours during high school exams. I wanted to be prepared.

Some tests we can't plan for in advance. Suddenly we find ourselves with an "examination paper" before us. With no warning, the teacher says, "Class, begin".

Right now my faith is being assessed. Will I keep believing? Will my witness stand? Regardless of circumstances, will I keep trusting?

I know my heart is faltering. My courage and confidence are wavering. My heart is breaking. I have answered some questions incorrectly. Feelings have triumphed over faith.

YET...I will still praise Him. I will not let go of the Lord. He is my everything. Lord, give me Your strength. Help me bring to mind all You have taught me in the past, the verses and truths, and may my life give testimony to my wonderful Teacher, Savior and Friend.

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." Psalm 139:23-24

(An update on my Dad can be found here: "60 Minutes")

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2 comments:

Marilyn in Mississippi said...

Joy,
I've only known you for a short while and have never met you in person but I believe I can answer your questions for you....YES, you will keep on believing...YES, you will keep your faith...and, YES, you will keep your witness. I believe you will be a shining light that can not be put out!

Marilyn

lisasmith said...

Joy, how I've missed your ponderings!!! So good to hear from you and keeping you close in prayer. Much love to you--lisa